Gwyneth Paltrow has said she had an “identity crisis” after winning the Best Actress Oscar in 1999 for ‘Shakespeare in Love’ aged 26.
Speaking to host Alex Cooper on Wednesday’s edition of the “Call Her Daddy” podcast, Paltrow discussed exes Brad Pitt and Ben Affleck and how winning the Oscar so young upset her. “I was so driven, I was working so hard and I didn’t know exactly what I was working towards. I just wanted to succeed and be well regarded and I was kind of on this really fast track and it happened so fast” , she told Cooper.
“Once I won the Oscar, it threw me into a kind of identity crisis, because if you win the biggest prize, what are you supposed to do? And where are you going to go she continued, “It was hard the amount of attention you get on a night like that and the weeks after, it’s just so disorienting. And frankly, really unhealthy. I was like, ‘This is crazy. I don’t know what to do, I don’t know which direction to go up. It was a lot. Not that I would give it back or anything, it was an amazing experience, but it kind of challenged a lot of things for me.
The actress was openly mocked for sobbing throughout his acceptance speech, and the fact that “Shakespeare in Love” upset Steven Spielberg’s “Saving Private Ryan” for Best Picture didn’t sit well with many moviegoers.
“I felt a real pivot that night because I felt like up until that point everyone was rooting for me in some way. And then when I won, it was too much, and I felt a real turn,” she said.
Paltrow explained why she was so emotional that night at the Oscars, her father: the late director Bruce Paltrow, who sat with her, was undergoing treatment for cancer.
“He was really weakened. It was just this totally overwhelming moment,” she said. “And, you know, I was 26. I cried and people were so mean about it and I just thought, ‘Wow, there’s this big energy shift happening. I think I’m going to have to learn to be less open and a lot more protective of myself and filter people better.
She added: “I remember I was working in England…and I remember the British press was so awful to me because I cried. And they didn’t necessarily know my dad was dying of cancer.
In 2008, Paltrow launched her wellness brand Goop, which takes more from her focus than taking action. Earlier this year, a the jury found in his favor when she was sued for a skiing accident.